Why am I passionate about this?

I'm a veteran author, journalist, and journalism professor who has taught over 1000 students. At the age of 50, through a memoir I began writing, I fell down a rabbit hole of memory and began to suspect I had been sexually abused as a child. The man was a close family friend, who liked to call himself my grandfather. He did not speak English. My parents were immigrants and the usual difficulties of retrieving memories from childhood were complicated by the fact that they were all in the Czech language. For years I read everything I could find about childhood sexual abuse and then everything I could read about psychoanalysis.


I wrote

The Long Half-Lives of Love and Trauma

By Helen Epstein,

Book cover of The Long Half-Lives of Love and Trauma

What is my book about?

The Long Half-Lives is a journalistic account and memoir of the long and successful path the author took to healing…

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The books I picked & why

Book cover of Trauma and Recovery: The Aftermath of Violence--From Domestic Abuse to Political Terror

Helen Epstein Why did I love this book?

Dr. Judith Herman, whose trauma seminar I was privileged to audit while I was struggling with my own initially vague memories of childhood sexual abuse, is an extraordinarily intelligent and sensitive author.

A physician by training, she has worked in the field of sexual trauma for over half a century. In her classic book Trauma and Recover, Dr. Herman synthesizes years of research and analysis into an easy-to-read narrative form. One of her most compelling findings is how in both the individual and in history, trauma is subject to forgetting and remembering.

A feminist, she has always listened carefully to her women patients and her work is especially meaningful to victims of violence against women.

By Judith Lewis Herman,

Why should I read it?

4 authors picked Trauma and Recovery as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

When Trauma and Recovery was first published in 1992, it was hailed as a ground-breaking work. In the intervening years, Herman's volume has changed the way we think about and treat traumatic events and trauma victims. In a new afterword, Herman chronicles the incredible response the book has elicited and explains how the issues surrounding the topic have shifted within the clinical community and the culture at large. Trauma and Recovery brings a new level of understanding to a set of problems usually considered individually. Herman draws on her own cutting-edge research in domestic violence as well as on the…


Book cover of Run Towards the Danger: Confrontations with a Body of Memory

Helen Epstein Why did I love this book?

This book narrates many kinds of trauma but the essay on sexual assault is worth buying the book.

A Canadian actor, director, and writer, Polley recounts her three-decade-long silence about Jian Ghomeshi, the hip, popular host of a hit CBC talk show. She moves from the ’90s to 2017, zeroing in on her flickering memories of assault, her reluctance to speak about it, her examination of that reluctance, her interrogation of other women in her situation, of lawyers, and her thoughts about it now.

It begins when she is outed on Twitter: “Wonder why Sarah Polley never spoke out about being assaulted by Jian Ghomeshi. #HerToo. She was the woman who stayed silent. Ask her.” Brilliant account of why women who are sexually abused do not speak out.

By Sarah Polley,

Why should I read it?

2 authors picked Run Towards the Danger as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

“A visceral and incisive collection of six propulsive personal essays.” – Vanity Fair

*A New York Times Book Review Editors' Choice*Named a Most-Anticipated Book of 2022 by Entertainment Weekly, Lit Hub, and AV Club*

Oscar-nominated screenwriter, director, and actor Sarah Polley’s Run Towards the Danger explores memory and the dialogue between her past and her present

These are the most dangerous stories of my life. The ones I have avoided, the ones I haven’t told, the ones that have kept me awake on countless nights. As these stories found echoes in my adult life, and then went another, better way…


Book cover of The Words to Say it

Helen Epstein Why did I love this book?

This is the first book I ever read about how, exactly, a classic psychoanalysis worked to cure a woman deeply damaged by childhood abuse.

It is set in France and written by an Algerian/French writer and academic, who seeks out psychoanalysis after physicians have given up on curing her symptoms. It is an intricate examination of how psychotherapy works and has become a classic text. 

By Marie Cardinal,

Why should I read it?

1 author picked The Words to Say it as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

THE WORDS TO SAY IT by Marie Cardinal, translated by Pat Goodheart, Van Vactor & Goodheart Publisher, is in the words of Bruno Bettelheim "the best account of a psychoanalysis as seen and experienced by the patient." It is the story of a healing set against the events in Algeria. Taught in over seven hundred and fifty colleges and universities as a text, and in over fifteen different departments, literature at Harvard University and in courses in medical ethics at Yale Medical School. It has received rave reviews in The London Sunday Times and the New York Times Book Review,…


Book cover of The Courage to Heal: A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse

Helen Epstein Why did I love this book?

The Courage to Heal was another of the first books I turned to when I began reading about childhood sexual abuse.

I felt confused back then and ambivalent about believing that I had been abused that I didn’t borrow the book from a library or buy it. Instead I went to the local bookstore and read it crouched in an aisle. It’s a great survey of the world of people who were sexually abused as children, with many case studies, background research, and resources for community support. 

By Ellen Bass, Laura Davis,

Why should I read it?

3 authors picked The Courage to Heal as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

Come to terms with your past while moving powerfully into the future

The Courage to Heal is an inspiring, comprehensive guide that offers hope and a map of the healing journey to every woman who was sexually abused as a child—and to those who care about her. Although the effects of child sexual abuse are long-term and severe, healing is possible.

Weaving together personal experience with professional knowledge, the authors provide clear explanations, practical suggestions, and support throughout the healing process. Readers will feel recognized and encouraged by hundreds of moving first-person stories drawn from interviews and the authors' extensive…


Book cover of Treating The Adult Survivor Of Childhood Sexual Abuse: A Psychoanalytic Perspective

Helen Epstein Why did I love this book?

Although this is a book written for practitioners rather than patients of psychotherapy, I found it extremely valuable in understanding what I was doing in therapy, how it worked, what to expect, and how to explain many of my reactions to it.

Dealing with sexual abuse in therapy is a tumultuous experience and has been described as “an intimidating challenge for clinicians.” It’s also an enormous challenge for patients. I liked reading about how the process felt for therapists and could recognize in many of the case studies, my own.

By Jody Messler Davies, Mary Gail Frawley,

Why should I read it?

1 author picked Treating The Adult Survivor Of Childhood Sexual Abuse as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

Entering the tumultuous, dissociated world of the adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse presents an intimidating challenge for clinicians. But as the authors of this innovative book argue, therapists must be willing and able to work within the powerful and rapidly shifting relational paradigms of transference and countertransference commonly found in treatment of these patients. Such dual roles enacted in treatment include the unseeing, uninvolved parent and the unseen, neglected child the sadistic abuser and the helpless, enraged victim the idealized rescuer and the entitled child and the seducer and the seduced.This is the first model for treatment of adult…


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The Long Half-Lives of Love and Trauma

By Helen Epstein,

Book cover of The Long Half-Lives of Love and Trauma

What is my book about?

The Long Half-Lives is a journalistic account and memoir of the long and successful path the author took to healing from childhood sexual abuse. It included extensive reading, the intensive support of friends, study with Harvard professor and author Judith Herman, and a long psychotherapy. The book “invents its own genre,” wrote Sherry Turkle. “The author investigates with the toolkits of a historian and ethnographer.” Eva Hoffman called it, “a true labor of memory, in which the story of the body is inseparable from the narrative of the self.” Dr. Judith Herman wrote, “Epstein illustrates the complex moral and psychological effects of trauma and the gritty process of recovery.”

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